1 for ME Linky:D

This morning I went for a walk/run......now let me back up....over the summer I was up EVERY morning, rain or shine and running....
this was my summer
and then school started/happened and all that came to a screeching halt!!!  (do you hear the tires????  I mean screeching:( )
So this morning on my walk/run I was doing some soul searching....warning ya now this post is not a teacher lesson plan, although I feel it ties to teaching, at least for me, and it is gonna be kind of a heart dump (sharing my heart if you will)
so as I was walking and trying to get my run back on I was thinking, trying to figure out why it had been soooooo long since I hit the pavement.  That "thinking/reflecting" led to "where has my drive gone?"  My drive for exercise, reading, teaching, doing....just life.  I feel like I have lost some of that since the school year started.  But, WHY?  Now let me say I have a great group of kids....love them.  So can't blame them.  Love my school too!  Can't blame that.  Not gonna lie, trying to roll out common core and still teaching state standards because that is what will be on the test has played into that....which has led to stress.....which has led to some of my fire "put out".   I think I just "forgot" about me:(
 
I'm one of those all or none personalities.....not good.....I need to find balance (which might have to be my one little word for 2014).  I pour most (90% plus) into my "job".  This morning as I was walk/running I realized that that is part of my problem.  Now, don't get me wrong.....I am all about being passionate about your job and pouring your heart into it but that has been my focus and nothing else....(I'm sure you can tell that by my blog posts....I have been horrible about blogging lately:(  ) Where did I (ME) fit into this equation.   My focus has been survival and that's about it.   NOT GOOD. 
 
In August I started a diet/new way of eating with veggie and proteins.....
made great progress

after losing 30 pounds I have managed to pack back on 6-9 depending on the day:(  Why?  I forgot about me again....
 
When I say forgot about me I mean take/MAKE the time for me.  Not just school stuff me but ME, ME.  You may think that sounds selfish and I'm sorry if you do.  I just know that I have a "list", the Lord and my family first of course but then all these other things are on the list before me.  THAT'S my problem.  I need to push me up on that list!  I HAVE to push me up on that list.  If I do that, I know my passion, my drive, my joy will be around more than it's gone.  Does that make sense?  I'm sure I'm not alone with these feelings.....am I?
 
So my walk/run brought me to this.  Yes, it's that time of year where we all sit and reflect and make our New Year's resolutions....lose 20 pounds, exercise more, read more, join the gym, blog more, make more products, walk, find a hobby, drink more water.....you get the idea.  I have that list as well....at least mentally.  But this morning I decided to pick ONE small, doable step/goal for ME.  ONE that won't go out the window in a month.  That of course led to a linky (I mean I am a blogger/teacher...lol.  That's what we do, right?)  We share and we link:)  So that is what I'm doing.
(Button collaboration: Melonheadz, Ashley Hughes, Jen Jones Hello Fonts, From the Pond)
 
 So my 1 for Me is this:  Push ME up on my list this year:)  That's it.  If I do that, I know the stress will go down and the fun will go up:)  Everything will fall into place:)
 
I would love to hear your "1 for Me" for you;)  Grab the button and link up if you feel like sharing.  It can be anything....doesn't have to be a heart dump like I did...lol.  I just needed to get that out:)  I would love to hear ONE for you:) 
 
I'm glad my walk/run brought me where it did this morning and I am looking at 2014 with new eyes and excited:)  I hope and pray you all have a blessed and safe end to 2013 and a wonderful beginning to 2014!!  Thanks for popping by and link up if you get a sec:)
Happy New Year!!!
 
 


26 comments

  1. Thank you for sharing your struggles this year. It shows that you are human and every one of your readers (especially me) can surely relate. Thank you for the heart dump. I think it's time for me to do the same. Leave it to you to create a linky to make me sit down and actually do it :) Listening to me yesterday, you know it's time for me, too. Thanks for being so supportive and such a sweet friend! I'm proud of you for taking time for YOU! You deserve it :)

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  2. Thank you so much for sharing this. From my blog this past year, some of my positivity has been gone and I want some of it back. But, due to my lack of blogging I've kind of lost touch with some of my blogging buddies. So I'm going to go "dump" on my blog a little and I'll be back to link up. It's nice to know we're not alone though. Good for you for getting back out there and hitting the pavement. You're in Florida, right? At least it's a little warmer there than it is here in Atlanta. I've lost 25 lbs since school started and now I am cold all the time. What app was that you were using?
    - Sydney
    Lessons Learned

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  3. This is a great post! It's good for you to make the change now before the depression sets in. I would have to safely say about 85% of the teaching staff at my school is unhappy. Getting pregnant, having Max, and going on maternity leave couldn't have come at a better time for me. Marzano, Common Core, ESE with no support, downright mean spirited bosses, entitled parents and by extension children, Support Staff stalling to help both teacher and student, and a ridiculous amount of paperwork for problems that are so RIGHT there are making us want to find a job in ANYTHING else. After saying that I think I want to have some more babies!
    Good luck in 2014!

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  4. Not selfish in the least! This is exactly my goal. I went back to teaching after a 14 year break to stay home. I knew going in that there would be a period of adjustment, so I've cut myself some slack. But working out and being fit is a HUGE part of who I am and that was lost during this last semester and it has effected my drive and self confidence. Crazy/stupid, but so true!! I'm putting me up on the list, as well. I have got to make time for me. If I'm taken care of, then everything else will be done with a better attitude and not with a feeling of grudge. So here is to 2014! Bring it and my motto has always been, NO EXCUSES and NO REGRETS! I'm going to live that way again! Cheers!

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  5. We can do this! I'm putting myself first as well! My goal is to have fun everyday. I'll be back later with my heart dump :) LOVED yours. Cheers to US!

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  6. You are beautiful, Tara. And for the record, if we don't spend time and energy on self-care, we really have nothing in our reserves from which to draw for others. You have a servant heart but it must be fed, too ... enJOY the feast!

    Blessings for a delightful, healthy 2014.

    Barbara

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  7. Thank you for hosting this linky party! As teachers, we are especially susceptible to putting ourselves last. We are fortunate to love our jobs, but we have to balance work with other things that are equally (and sometimes more) important. I will be the first to admit that is easier said than done.
    Happy New Year!
    You look great!

    Mary
    Fit to be Fourth

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  8. I know Florida is not alone in this, but I feel an amount of pressure this year that I have not felt in the past...well...a lot last year, but nothing like this year. I blame a majority of that on the VAM and the pressure of the test scores, but it's other stuff too...like you said-CCSS/NGSSS. I think it's great that you were able to take a moment to reflect on what you could do to take some of the stress out of your life. I'm glad you are going to spend more time on YOU. That is so very important! I'll be cheering you on!
    Alison
    Rockin' and Lovin' Learnin'

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  9. Thanks for the great linky. It sure makes one reflect! You look wonderful. Thanks for sharing your story! Happy New Year!

    Renee at the Science School Yard

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  10. Your comments are indeed a reflection of teaching world-wide. In every country teachers are complaining about where curriculum is going and who it is taking for the ride. I think you've got it right when you say you need to find yourself before you have any hope of finding any sort of happiness and acceptance. Good luck in your 2014 journey, and I hope we all find that spark again!

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  11. I just found your blog and I LOVE it! I am also a 4th grade teacher and your ideas are so creative. This post describes exactly how I feel about the first half of the year and I'm also going to try to make more 'me' time this year. Thank you!

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  12. I am right there with you, Tara. I was running every day during the summer, and then school started, and STOP!!! I have used my new position this year and new schedule, as an excuse not to exercise nor make wise eating choices. I don't feel good or look good. I'm putting me higher on my priority list as well. By the way, you are doing awesome! 30 pounds, if only... Keep up the great work.

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  13. Thank you so much for your reflection, Tara. It is so comforting to know that we are not alone. That is the beautiful world of blogging -- how we can all support each other in so many ways. Before I read your post, I had posted about the One Word project I'm doing and choosing one word to guide me for the new year. I chose the word "Forward" because it is something that I can remember in all parts of my life -- personal and professional and that I need to remember to put first things first. I admire you for reminding us all to do that. (I'm going to have my students participate in the One Word Project as well and made a little movie to get them thinking. It's on my blog post if you'd like to see/use it.)

    Thank you for all you do! Wishing you the best in 2014!
    Jennifer
    Mrs. Laffin's Laughings

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  14. Tara~
    You were one of the first blogs that I discovered in the summer of 2012, and I believe one of the reasons I started blogging was because I really related to what you had to say. I'm glad you are taking the time for you. We did the huge CCSS change last year, and I don't think I've ever been as stressed as trying to fit it all in. I'll be looking forward to hearing how you are working on that me time! Please share it with your readers, it helps us connect just as much as the teaching posts!
    Happy New Year
    Michele
    Coffee Cups and Lesson Plans

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  15. I can so relate with you! Finding balance seems to be such a distant dream but I keep reaching for those stars! Who knows...maybe this is the year.
    By the way...you look marvelous!
    Wishing you the best year yet!

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  16. Wow! Reading your post was like having some of my own thoughts brought out in the open. Balance was to be my word for the year, but so far the scales have been pretty tipped. Thank you so much for sharing your feelings-it helps to know that we all find ourselves in the same boat and that we aren't alone. We'll just have to keep working to find the right level- right now I'm choosing to think of my life as a see-saw --sometimes you are up, sometimes you are down and sometimes for brief moments you level off but the best thing about that see-saw- you have a friend along with you for the ride. :) Wishing you all the best in 2014-it's going to be great!
    ♬Kay
    On the Trail of Learning

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  17. Great post Tara.So many of your thoughts are my thoughts as well. You hit the nail on the head. I think many of us need to forgive ourselves a bit more. If we know that we are doing the best that we can each and every day then that should be all that matters. Best wishes for a bright 2014! Hang in there ....you will reach your goals.
    Debbie :)

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  18. I found your blog today and I just LOVED reading this post and the comments from everyone! Teaching is such a demanding profession and it's so frustrating that the only people that truly understand the demands are the teachers! I could go on and on about how I relate to you and everyone else that commented...but we really do need to put US first...I just struggle with how to actually do that! I've just joined the blogging world...stop by and visit if you want!

    Kate :)
    Visit McDee's Busy Bees Blog

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  19. Such an amazing post. THANK YOU for sharing. I am so proud of you for how far you've come with running! YOU were my inspiration to stay fit all summer, and I know you will get back to that routine and get your drive back! The demands of our profession are fierce and hefty, but we need to remember ourselves and our own goals and health, too! Thank you for providing this avenue for me to link up and pour my heart out, too! Sending lots of love and HUGS, friend!

    Amelia
    wherethewildthingslearn

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  20. Wow. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and inner struggles. It is nice to have that sometimes. I know on my blog I try and make it all relavent info and not about me, but it is SO important to not forget about yourself--like you explained so well in your post. I wish you the best with with year and your do-able goals. I too started to exercise and do a diet at the beginning of December, but then the holidays set in and I had a screeching halt too : ) But I'm not too worried, I think I still make some time for me (amid my busy schedule)--although I wish it wasn't always from 10PM to midnight or 5-7AM (but so it is with life and my family).
    ~Lucy Kids Math Teacher

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  21. I love this post! I'm only in my 2nd year of teaching, but I have been struggling with this same issue. I've starting eating healthier and going to the gym too. It's amazing the difference that makes. My next thing to work on is getting to sleep earlier. Good luck with your goal :)

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  22. Wow! You are always such an inspiration, Tara!! I love this post and your "one for me" goal. If you don't take time for yourself, then what will you be able to give back? Thank you for the reminder! You truly are inspiring with your running. Keep up the awesome work!! :)
    ~Holly
    Fourth Grade Flipper

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  23. Wow, I could have written this WORD for WORD except for all those summer miles! WOW! I was doing great at the gym....yoga, spinning, zumba...then school picked up, my 2 & 4 yr old were extra needy with winter colds, hunting season came and went (my husband was out on the weekends in the woods) and I gave up on me. I need to focus on me...I got my nails done for the first time in over a year! Starting off small, but I need to get into shape, I not only owe it to myself, but to my kids to have a healthy momma! Thanks for the great post! I'll link up today! :)
    Theresa
    Pinkadots Elementary

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  24. Dear Tara, I read your post several times. I must tell you a couple of things. First, your blog is the first that I began to follow as a new blogger. I started my blog as a way to keep parents informed and quickly discovered the blogger teacher world. Of course, my blog began to evolve into what it is now and I credit you, especially, and bloggers like Farley, Pinkadots, Teeny Tiny Teacher, Runde's Room, Tunstall's Teaching, and so many more with helping me get going and keeping me informed and entertained. So thank you! Now, the second thing: I did some soul searching too. Yes, I spend entirely too much time on my blog and TpT store. The excuse that I use is that I no longer have small children at home and have nothing else to do......while true, it is just an excuse. So, I am following your lead and setting side an hour or two a day for JUST ME. I started by ordering a book called "Not a Fan". This is a book I have wanted for a while, but I'm ready now to learn how to be a better follower. This is just for me. Thanks again.

    Carol
    Teachers Are Terrific!

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  25. Amen, girlfriend! I am right there with you. Not selfish in the least! Cheers to a fabulous new year! :o)
    Jivey
    ideas by jivey

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  26. Thanks for writing what my brain wanted to say. Except I am starting the weight loss journey. Christmas gave me time to reflect and your blog and the comments of others let me hear others struggles. It helped me feel that I am not an idiot, a slacker or any of that negative self-talk. We are all giving it our best now let's start by giving that best back to us after God. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you.

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